@scram. Wow, your plate was already full and overflowing before the diagnosis. It is very hard to slow down and start thinking of your own needs. Sometimes we need to advocate for ourselves in the medical environment which is difficult when we don’t understand ourselves what is happening. The port will make things much easier for your treatment and much less painful. I put emla cream on my port site one hour before my treatment and do not even feel the needle for treatment. Take some time for you now even if that means you have to accept outside help. You are important and it is time to realise that meeting your needs is vital for you to continue doing what you cannot pass on. Sending big hugs.