hi I haven't posted since last week

Hi Tracey,

I allways feel so much better when I get a message from all of you, it makes me feel not so alone but I had no Idea how much the bc was going to affect me until now, I just can't seem to see the light and yes I am trying to be positive and happy in front of them but sometimes I just want to scream, the only ones I can be around are my friends at school they let me rant and rave and give me cuddles and let me cry, my best friend admires me and sends me the most beautiful messages sometimes they make me cry but she's allways there for me and I know it's affecting my husband but sometimes he won't talk about it to me, I was so happy when I was in hospital he opened up to my Breast Nurses a little which is good you forget how much your partner is affected by it all, I suppose we can't be positive all the time even though we try. Sending you a big cuddle.

Anitaxxx