Helpful and not so helpful

I try to stay home when I'm not feeling too good. But if I am going out I try to look my best. I take time with what I wear including a head scarf, wrap or whatever. I spend time with makeup including a few tricks from LGFB. I try to stay hydrated so my skin looks healthy, I try to exercise a bit so I feel better generally. I had long hair before and never wore earrings, but I've had my ears pierced and have some nice new earrings. I find I am wearing things I would not have considered before, more colours, much more interesting than before cancer. I try to do the best with what I've got, just like everyone else I guess. So if someone I meet says I look good, I'm very happy take the compliment. I've put in the effort, same as I would have prior to cancer. And usually I think I look ok. Different, but ok. Only my family really know what I'm going through, and I don't think I really need to burden my friends too much with details of the true difficulties of treatment. (I do tell about the weird gross things though), but unless they've been there, they could not understand. So for me I take compliments as intended, even if I don't feel great. I have not come across anyone who does not show sympathy or care with my situation, even strangers. Some people struggle with how to react, or what to say. Friends and family like that I have tried to make it easier for them, rather than have them worried about how to approach me. There's no malice there, just an inability to understand what to say or do. I've been there too, and that's really hard. I do feel really down after treatments, and I hate what this whole cancer thing has and is doing to my body. My 40s were going to be my best 10 years. So I sometimes get really angry too that forever my body and health will be compromised. I hate that my family are affected, they care for me, take time away from work, Uni or school to be with me. But I suppose we all gain a little bit more tolerance, so I just can't get upset at others ignorance or lack of knowing just what to say or do for me right now. Cancer is crap...no question. But I reckon life is too short to be angry and upset. BUT.....some of the harder comments to deal with.... To "stay positive" That " you'll be fine and back to normal soon" That "well you don't have cancer now..right?, they cut it all out" And the best comment "I know someone having chemo and they are just normal; work, jog, unload trucks, whatever, they even have hair". L:)