Actually I'm amazed to put it mildly, after all that how do you stay positive, I'm sure talking to people like youself would provide a better, more balanced, view of the world but I'm struggling to get that first step to happen.
I'm thinking that part of the answer to the first question is that your doctors and breast care nurse helped you with that balance, we've yet to find that balance so perhaps that's why we're finding the trust so difficult to deliver.
I feel that if I could get her on to this forum we could start to address that but it is a wall I can't find a way past right now.