Thank you wondrous ladies for these articulate helpful words. I’m going to read them as I tremble in the waiting room in the morning. I have gotten way way way too good at shoving my emotions down and surviving and being in a fair bit of denial about things for a while now. So my fear is that I’ll just completely come undone and she will be upset, and I’ll feel guilty and ugh....you’re right @primek I am trying to predict everything aren’t I?! Brain is doing a number on me big time.
She must be just even more extraordinary than I already knew - to be a doctor to women with the same illness, and be strong enough to face up to that, in a professional setting....I am just in awe of that. And the more I am blown away by that strength, the more sadness I feel at how shit it is that someone so awesome has to suffer. I don’t know if I’m explaining it right 😕 but it’s a biiiiiig basket of mixed emotions tonight, and going in will be bloody hard. I hope I can be as strong as she taught me to be.
