Help, i don't know how to handle the sadness thats coming.

@"Summer Prevails" maybe if you think about how you can make it easier for her - it must be difficult enough for her to process but she is a professional and she must want to go on in her occupation. Perhaps you can both just be together in your respective roles while offering some sense of kindness and compassion to each other, recognizing what you are going through together as companions on a very hard journey. You will need to face up to your grief and anger but tomorrow's appointment probably isn't the best time for it. Best wishes and here's hoping you can find the strength to make it easy for you both.