We are our own worst enemies sometimes as we start to try and recover. It is so hard to know where to set the bar because everything is so different. We have to acknowledge that physically it can take a while before some things are possible.
It's scarey too because you just don't know how long it will take or even IF you still have the same capabilities. I think also that our priorities change and maybe this is a big part of it too. Such a huge readjustment on so many levels.
For me it really helped to do what I could to help the physical side of recovery and it sounds like you have done this too. I think as I improved in my fitness, this helped me mentally as well.
I think little steps were helpful for me but every now and then I take a great big leap and so far have not had a big fall! (Touch wood!). Just a few stumbles that I had to readjust for. If something isn't going well then don't blame yourself just make some changes or get some help.
We are definitely our own harshest judges and TIME is the best thing we can give ourselves. Spend time each day doing things that make you feel better and slowly, bit by bit you do get stronger. It is getting that BELIEF back in yourself that gives you the confidence to step out again. Realizing that this is normal for anyone who has been through a life changing experience is the best thing we can do.
Just keep that one step at a time thing going and you WILL get there and I think you will find that your life will be better than ever. :) Deanne xxx