You will get there, I'm sure. I was exactly where you are now and also found that exercise and meditation helped. It's an up and down time but doing something (even walking just 100m) makes you feel better and at the end of your treatment you will have more strength because you helped yourself when it was really hard to do so. That will give you a boost into your recovery because you will have that sense of achievement. This is just as much (if not more) a mental challenge as a physical one. Just keep moving forward and you definitely will get there. Take care. Deanne xxx