hi, I know how you feel I try not to think about it but it creeps in when im doing my hair ,cooking tea ,trying to sleep .As much as we think weve beat it those damn thoughts creep in only sometimes for a second but you try and push it away but that thought still manages to worm its way through. I found now xmas is approaching its worse because you think will i be celebrating next year? will I be ok next year next week next month , Then I WANT TO SLAP myself and say idiot get on with enjoying life. NO you are not alone I think we will have those thouhgts forever.
LOVE TO ALL ADEAN