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I'm on my way to two years come November to being in remission, I'm a survivor of the chemo and radiation path but ever since finishing I've become scared of doctors and specialists because they told me I had this dreaded bugger of a disease but since then I tell them I have something wrong here or there and they tell me to go see the other doctor, oncologist, specialist, cancer care clinic and I just feel really dumb for telling them anything because I survived the worst.  I've been telling them I have a lot of pain it all started just before chemo finished and I still have it to this day only getting worse.  I've now been told go back to my GP and get a referral to a rheumatologist.  I thought it was because of the menopause especially with all the hot flushes all day long and night (phew).  But maybe it's not, taking all the magnesium that was recommended but didn't see any beneficial results.  Anxiety and depression every day.