Thanks for helpful, supportive comments! I think I may need to talk to someone to try to lift this dark fog that has drowned out my normally cheerful (at least outwardly) personality! I seem to have lost my sense of humour somewhere in this! I think my family all think I'll be jumping up and down full of energy and happiness in a couple of weeks but I just see a long road of aggravation ahead trying to get back on track! I'll get there! I'm listening! One day/week/month at a time! Now to deal with this chemo few days first! Thanks all!