Fed up!

Hi  Tonya - I guess my 'subject line' answered that pretty well - I really have to fight to be well behaved (laughing out loud here!).  Yesterday was ok - I got the happy pills and goodness knows anything about the rest of the day - bit like being drunk for sure, because I had changed an appointment, written notes and completely forgotten that I had done any of it today........I came to a conclusion about 'chemo brain' - now here's a thought.  I don't think 'chemo brain' is caused by chemo as such, I believe it is caused by the fact your head is FULL, and you have a hard time concentrating with so much on your plate and the other thing is you are unwell - so add chemo to the mix and yup! Chemo brain.  I feel like I am in a fog - maybe that is why I behaved myself, so busy up there in my own little world and miles away.  My mother-in-law chattered constantly, so that was the biggest bug as I wanted to scream and say 'shut up!' but I couldn't do that because it wouldn't have been fair and she never gets to see her son much (lot more than I see my kids I can tell you) but never the less, I take it all into account and tell my self 'shuttup sherlock' and behave - I am thinking tomorrow night, I would fancy some bubbely - mmmmmm! Today I snuck into the fridge and had some malteezers with my green tea (now there's a combination!) but my favourite 'spoil me food' is Snowballs - apparently you can't get them in Queensland -but you can here in Victoria - they are kind of like a lamington - only instead of cake in the filling......its marshmellow, I nibble off the coconutty chocolate and then let the marshmellow melt in my mouth..............heaven! and I aint misbehavin'!  Well I am but I don't care!  As I look at anyone who dares to judge I say 'bite me!'    Yes I am a little naughty aren't I?  Care to join me any one? Love and hugs to all x x x Josie