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maxi_d
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12 years ago

Everything old is new again - unfortunately.

Surgery on the 12th December - double mastectomy. Felt like my woman-hood had been taken away. So many tears in the two before, more after surgery. Could not look at myself in the mirror for 3 days. Not handling this too well as, it's my sixth tumour/cancer. Part of my skull taken away - Brain tumour, bladder cut & lasered - Bladder cancer, Para-thyroid node missing - tumour, Sigmoid colon missing - Bowel cancer, bits of my elbow gone - Melanoma and now no boobs! I really do wonder how much more this body can take? Added to all this, last Christmas (2012) I had a 95% blocked carotid artery (the one that feeds blood & oxygen to the brain) and no surgeon (at least on the Sunshine Coast) would go near me for fear of a stroke. I found a wonderful man at the Wesley Hospital who, literally saved my life. So, I read about how everyone feels upon diagnosis and believe me, it does not get any easier the sixth time around. The only small consolation is, all were primaries. I have cried & cried once again & now, one of the worst things this time around (apart from surgery) is the seroma which is extremely painful. Have had it aspirated twice already and as fast as it is taken away, the cavity fills in lumps again. Hope I can make it through again. Doesn't feel like it right now & my body is so tired. Maxine

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