So sorry that you have to go through this. Counselling and mediation helped me a bit. Some days are going to be horrible, some ok, some good. And then hopefully you get better and life goes on again. Having cancer and going through the treatment is a profound experience and it changes me and others I know. Some changes are definitely for the better. Good luck and hold on. As someone wise said to me when I struggled with chemo, you don’t have to like it, you just have to do it! Karen