Kez51
14 years agoMember
Emotions
Well one week has past since I came out of hospital from my double mastectomy. It has been a bit emotional with good and bad news. I have found myself feeling very alone and sad with lots of tears. It has definitely made me realise how tough it is to go through something like this with out your partner of 30yrs and how much I miss that comfort ....that hug ...that smile that tells you it will all be ok. You look at yourself in the mirror ...and, well you know what i mean........its not nice what you see.
Yeh I have good friends but they have their own life's with their partners and work. Since I got out of hospital I have hardly seen them and that has been hard. I've basically been on my own all week. I know I'm lucky that the cancer didn't win ... I found it early and have beaten it again....but I feel exhausted mentally and emotional. I have lost so much in the past few years that sometimes I'm not sure if I have the strenghth to keep fighting....especially when so often I feel so alone.