Hi @Cookie47, sorry you've joined the club, but lots of support here. I also don't show how I'm feeling and tell everyone I'm all good when really it's not the case. It's all so overwhelming in the beginning isn't it. I've just had a right mastectomy and all nodes removed nearly three weeks ago. I did chemo first, then surgery and radiation starts soon. It's a lot to take in but one day at a time. Chemo isn't always as bad as you think it might be. The cancer council will be able to tell you where a support group nearest you is.