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Emotional roller coaster
Just when you think you are about to get off this detour and return to normal life you realize that it's not all that straightforward.
Physically I am getting there but I just realized that my emotions are still as raw as the skin on my chest after 25 zaps of radiation.
This weekend I have a work Christmas function, an extended family Christmas party and my daughter's 21st birthday. I am looking forward to all of these events and will see many people for the first time since my diagnosis 7 months ago. So all should be good but for some reason I keep tearing up and am really worried that it might be a very emotional weekend. I don't want to ruin happy occasions for everyone so how do I pull myself together and concentrate on all the positives?
Could it be the tamoxifen?
Help! Deanne xxx
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- Hi Deanne, I'm glad you have enjoyed yourself. You will be soooooo tired after having a few events all at once though. Yesterday I had the long awaited and planned for Fund Raiser that my sister and niece organised. I did heaps of cooking and really enjoyed being 'useful' again. But I am totally exhausted today both in body and mind. I saw a lot of people, some old friends and some new but I felt like recording my story and just setting it on a playback loop. It was a little different from a get together where you could get off the subject, eventually. After all we were raising money for breast cancer and I was to focal point I guess. But I'm so glad it's over. I was rather desperate for it to finish in the end. I do hope you enjoy your daughter's 21st. Such a special time when your children reach a milestone isn't it. Unfortunately you won't be able to prevent the tears but they will be happy ones. Enjoy it all Deanne. We are beating this! Love Janey xxx
