Emotional roller coaster

Hi Deanne, I'm glad you have enjoyed yourself. You will be soooooo tired after having a few events all at once though. Yesterday I had the long awaited and planned for Fund Raiser that my sister and niece organised. I did heaps of cooking and really enjoyed being 'useful' again. But I am totally exhausted today both in body and mind. I saw a lot of people, some old friends and some new but I felt like recording my story and just setting it on a playback loop. It was a little different from a get together where you could get off the subject, eventually. After all we were raising money for breast cancer and I was to focal point I guess. But I'm so glad it's over. I was rather desperate for it to finish in the end. I do hope you enjoy your daughter's 21st. Such a special time when your children reach a milestone isn't it. Unfortunately you won't be able to prevent the tears but they will be happy ones. Enjoy it all Deanne. We are beating this! Love Janey xxx

Yes mostly good but I was surprised how challenging it was to walk into a room full of people who know you have one missing breast and virtually no hair. It was different to going out in public where no one knows you and gives you a second glance. Most people were good about it and other than a brief acknowledgment of it being a tough year and enquiries about have I finished treatment we talked about 'normal' things. A few women wanted to know details which I was happy to be open about (might help them or someone else one day). One of the guy's wives is a breast care nurse so we had quite a detailed chat which some of the other ladies found educational. Was disappointed that one person who I have known as a friend for over 20 years (not so close in last couple of years) just avoided me and left without saying anything. But I guess that is her problem. Lucky she is not someone I have to deal with much. As you say hopefully we will all move past it and onto 'normal' life. The family Xmas gathering was great and I am sure the 21st this evening will be good too. But I am sure I will be very tired for the next couple of days! Take care. Deanne xx

I hope your night was a great success and that you enjoyed yourself.

I thought of you offen last night as I was a a friends birthday party and everyone wanted to talk and ask questions, I had many comments on my lovely head of curls and that I was radiant and that was good becasue I felt good but I tired of talking about myself and no matter how I tried to steer the conversation it seemed to still come back to that one subject.

Anyway we do eventually move past it I am sure there are lasies further along who may be able to validate that (i hope anyway).

Love

Donna

Thanks Deanne , I've changed my outfit 3 times and am heading out now- not sure why :) Will take your advice re conversation . Have a lovely night too. Sophie Xx

I'm dressed and ready to head out the door. My hair and eyebrows are still only about 2 or 3 mm long. So after much debate I am not wearing a wig (they know I've lost my hair so I would feel false). I have a pretty blue scarf/cap on and I feel ok. I hope you are feeling ok too. I went to a street party last weekend and found the best approach was to mention the BC early in the conversation and then move onto normal topics. People seem to take their lead from how you are about it. Hope you enjoy your night too. Take care. :) Deanne xx

I have just passed my one year anniversary and find that I still get emotional at times. It is difficult if its a work situation but with family you will blitz it, there is so much support there that it just smoothes thigns out for us.

I am sure the drugs are part of it but I also think that we have been through so much that sometimes its ovewhlming when we talk about it to others.

Enjoy your weekend and especially the 21st that is such a special time in our family lives.

love

Donna

 

I have just passed my one year anniversary and find that I still get emotional at times. It is difficult if its a work situation but with family you will blitz it, there is so much support there that it just smoothes thigns out for us.

I am sure the drugs are part of it but I also think that we have been through so much that sometimes its ovewhlming when we talk about it to others.

Enjoy your weekend and especially the 21st that is such a special time in our family lives.

love

Donna

 

Enjoy it Deanne, you deserve it x

Reading your comments and hearing that many of you feel the same with emotions bubbling over is so reassuring. To have come so far without falling apart (well just for little moments here and there) it was a bit of a worry to feel a bit out of control. I think Tonya really summed it up with the word vulnerable. I am stepping out from my safe haven of close family and friends and that definitely makes me feel vulnerable. I am facing another unknown of how people will react when they see the post BC version of me. The one thing I have learnt out of my experience though is that you can face anything if you have support. I will head off to tonight (work function) with my wonderful husband and the support of all you wonderful ladies. Thank-you all. Deanne xxxooo