So sorry to hear you are having a hard time at the moment.
I started my fec last week too, and I have been up and down emotionally also.
Sometimes it's just hard to stay positive. That's okay though, we can't be up and positive all the time.
You will always be wife, mother and friend, but right now you need to be selfish and take care of you.
My lovely friends on this site told me this! I have to keep telling myself this too.
You are not alone.
All of us are brave brave brave!
Much love Penny xx