My dear sisters thank you so much for all your support. Agendum I have been married for 30 years( my typing isnt great oopps!) I have been to see my medical onc and she has given me some tab. Efexor has anyone else been on those? and I have been to see the councillor and the social worker. All very helpful . This has been a year of loss ,people who I thought were friends and turned out not to be,others who make my cancer all about them and now this. What doesn't kill you eh? One good thing is that I am still on herceptin every three weeks so I am still connected to all the services at the hospital and this has been a blessing. Wishing you all peaceful and healthy Christmas's Love hilary xx