Donna

so true Julie! I mentioned it to my closest friend and she said " just say you don't want to talk  about it but it was hard when it was x 10 plus people! When I think about it I'm grieving bits of my life that I used to have, things have definately changed and in lots of ways for the better. I have more meaningful conversations and do get that feeling of being in the moment at times.  Like you I have worked through my treatment with the company I work for kindly giving me whatever time I need to recover. I've liked being back at work. Its given me something else to think about but I do get what you mean about escaping for 3mths. I think the brave bit is being able to face this and make the appearances with our scarves on or wigs which as a sales executive on the road has been hard at times but its made my relationships with my customers so much stronger and warmer. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. I'm now looking at things through different eyes. Treatment will be over soon and I'm taking myself on a holiday after this. All the best to you too Julie xox