Hi @Fletch , interesting what your GP mentioned. I have suffered from depression on and off for years and have found cancer easier to deal with in many ways.
For one thing, I have been able to reach out to family and friends for support without feelings of shame or stigma. To lean on others during cancer treatment is such a socially sanctioned act, isn't it?
I have had many feelings during this experience, from a zen like acceptance to hyperventilating about my imminent mortality in the wee hours.
I had chemo first, so I didn't have time to panic about it before it started. Surgery will be the last step for me and I'm fairly certain that I'm going to panic more closer to the time (late October). At the moment I am dealing with it by trying not to think about it.
Because I knew that counseling has been helpful to me during depression, I took up the offer of counseling during cancer treatment with gratitude. My counselor is lovely, and is particularly helpful in letting me know when what I am feeling is similar to others going through cancer. I hope you will find it helpful too.
xxx and many hugs.