Just be really kind to yourself! I think many of us feel a bit ‘what now?’ at around the one year point. I certainly did. Like you, my life looked ok on the outside, but inside I felt sad and empty and scared too.
My life had been out of balance for so long that I needed to find what actually made me feel good again. I had put myself under pressure without really meaning too, getting back to ‘normal’. But I needed to find what gave me that happy feeling and do more of it. Yes @iserbrown music is one of my feed the soul things too!