Yes Herb lady I use 'being in the moment' and 'keeping busy' every day and I have tools I can use that help when I wake having those panic attacks.
I expected I would be over the terrifying nightmares and dreams that come from the subconscious but that really hasn't happened and apparently I may never be completely rid of them. I am learning to accept that and consider them as a natural part of my healing process.
I found I also needed to socialise with positive people because I would go into depression otherwise just listening to negative attitudes. Logically I am able to understand the fear of recurrence and perhaps it is good to be prepared. I believe I was rather innocent thinking I would be able to cope much bettere than I am.
Still I can acknowledge my problems and work on them.