Thank you so much for your post. You're right of course - we do the battle bravely and then later - kerplunk! I am much better now after a rest and a bit of a regroup, but I do worry this depression will reoccur so I am going to speak to the GP about it. I'm already on Effexor so not sure if that's not working or dosage isn't right or what...but it's certainly not helping in terms of depression.
I guess that my expectations of myself upon return to work was too high also. I expected to be like I was before, but as I found out - it was not to be and I had to learn to cope with the new "me" without getting frustrated and angry...not an easy task I can tell you. I'm not exactly a very patient person so I wanted to be normal from Day 1 after chemo! What a silly twit! Never mind - I suppose each of us have to learn in our own way! haha!
I have decided to take up water painting as some form of art therapy and hopefully that will help. I hope I can be half as good as you are at art!
And I'm eternally grateful that I can voice my concerns to the lovely ladies on this network. I'd be lost without BCNA.
I hope you are ok ... luv to hear what you've been up to. I do hope you are well.
cheers and luv
Helen