Many of us have been where you are right now. It can be so hard to see past the awful reality of what you feel like right now. No energy, lots of pain, no taste buds and no one to tell you when you will ever feel great again. You can't distract yourself because you are utterly incapable of actually doing anything! A big part of this is how our world narrows down to just this matter of surviving treatment because it takes so much to just do that, both physically and emotionally.
But having been where you are now, I can tell you that it will start to get better from this point on. The first bit of recovery took about a month for me. Then a bit of a set back with the fatigue from radiotherapy. Once I could start to do things again I really started to feel more normal. The really amazing thing is how very, very good it feels to rejoin the big world again. Everything seemed better than before because of those weeks and weeks of not feeling good. You are about to experience the better part of this process. The worst is truly behind you and each day now is a day closer to the good things not a day closer to the next round of being knocked to the ground.
Step by step you will recover and we will be here if you need some encouragement or just someone to listen and understand. Take care and hope you feel better soon. Deanne xxx