Chemo still sucks on taxol

I agree with @Primek it was different not better! and I remember by about the 5th infusion I lost the 2 days of feeling normal. I was in a world of pain from then on, I too had some episodes where I was so broken in the end I couldnt even get to my letterbox. I remember wanting to stop and give up and to be honest I didnt care from that place I was in. BUT...this is what I know...it is so incredibly healthy to acknowledge how bad it is and not for everyone, but for those who suffer badly. To know without a doubt you do get through and the only way I did in the end was a day at a time. 

I'm now 2.5yrs post Taxol and wanted to say so you know absolutely you will recover. Its been a long recovery for me but I am now back at work full time because I dont have a choice. It is tough I admit, but I now exercise a little and am active and I never thought I would be anywhere near this again. I do have lasting side effects and it is hard, so on a bad day I take panadol osteo. Ive never had pain killers through treatment or surgeries as am drug sensitive, it was cruel! 

Be super kind, one day at a time and you really will amaze yourself. Unfortunately everyone expects your last chemo is a celebration...and the end to it all. They dont realise the long recovery back, they just want you back to normal and understandable, but its not that simple. 

Hugs @sister and @Eastmum and anyone else going through it, there is no being strong or weak in any of it only who we are and thats valid! xx Melinda