You are quite right Kath , it has been traumatic , I still have nightmares about the radiation room , I freak out being in a room with the door closed and the dread of it every Mon -Fri was beyond any fear I have ever known , even scarier than the initial diagnosis , am hoping it will be like childbirth and I will forget the really bad parts !!!!! I am feeling so much better since reading everyone's posts back to me and am being kinder to myself ?? I hope things are going well for you and you have a lovely day ????