Hi Kathy,
Like Rowdy says...it's an emotional ride. What you are feeling is perfectly "normal". We first get shrouded in the protective fog, then the warrior in us emerges, then REALITY sets in and we really LOOK at ourselves..then the anger, disbelief, disappointment and questioning arrives.....BC broke into our lives, ransacked our very being and left a trail of obstacles for us to navigate....It's such a emotionally draining situation we are faced with and sometimes we even surprise ourselves with our reactions....but know this;
NEVER be ashamed of your scars, they are a reminder that YOU are STRONGER than what tried to hurt you!
With time you will accept your "new' body and realise it's a reminder that you are not to be messed with...you are strong and beautiful....you are still YOU ...
<3 Xx xX <3
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