Beating the blues without antidepressants

I shouldn't laugh but the 'Do I, don't I' about going to the loo is priceless. I have given up and just go when I wake up - saves hours of shilly shallying. Either way, I'm awake and lying debating the issue is possibly a sign of madness. Valerian I can handle but it doesn't always work. Lots of alcohol works but that's a Bad Idea. Sudoku or something that effectively shuts out any creative, demonic or work related thinking helps. Partner falls asleep in about 4 minutes and sleeps through anything. Also snuffles and snorts - although to be fair I wake just as often, even more sometimes, when he is elsewhere.  You could kill.