Hello Susie, Yes I did feel very alone whilst undertaking radiation therapy. As with Kay I had to leave home and be in Brisbane for my treatment which meant away from my main support, my husband. Even though I stayed at my sister and brother in law's home, they both worked, I had my daughter and family close by. Not the same as being at home though. I drove myself in to treatment each day and felt so alone whilst doing this. A lot of days I cried most of the way which was not a good thing to do in the traffic. I returned home and had chemo which is now all finished. Everywhere I go people tell me how well I look. Yeh sure - I know my face is round and fat from the sterioids but underneath I am so tired..... Lucky people don't see me at home in my pj's most of the day with my beanie on. It is quite difficult for me to go out and I have to really plan the trips. (seems easy but it takes me so long to get ready) Don't get me wrong I love getting out of the house but I am amazed at the effort it takes. I get so frustrated at not having the energy I require to do what I want to do. We all have to remind ourselves that what we are going through is a HUGE challenge and we must not be too hard on ourselves and we must not PUSH ourselves. Easy isn't it - NOT. But it really does take a long time to get back to "Normal". Going through bc takes a lot of our confidence away as well so that needs to also be renewed. My husband finds it difficult to understand why I want to be with other BC survivors for a lot of my socialising. You know and I know why - they understand where we are at!!!!!! Take care Susie you are completely NORMAL in this bc world.XLeonie
