Dear Tracey,
very sorry to hear how hard this is for you. It does sound to me that you are doing all the right things like counselling and mindfulness meditation.
i am a recently diagnosed breast cancer patient (February) and am currently going through chemo. It is hard work and I have been feeling anxious and depressed as a reaction to steroids they give you with chemo. I am trying to organise counselling as well.
one thing I am confident in though is that we are in the best place in the world when it comes to breast cancer treatment and it's success.
Has someone given you information about breast cancer, treatment options, support groups and organisations? There appears to be a lot of it there and I have found that knowing more has given me more confidence along the way. Do you have a breast care nurse?
you will get through I'm sure. I will say my little prayer for you (I do have some powerful ones).
Nada