Anxious weekend ahead

Well ladies I haven't posted on here for a while but do check in and see how everyone is travelling fairly regularly. I had my yearly check up today after having last years go smoothly, feeling great (other than the usual back pain and occasional nerve twinges from Rad damage etc), seeing my Oncologist or Breast Surgeon every 3 months expected all to be ok. I am now sitting here after having a biopsy under my Aux arm, they found a couple of anomalies in my scans and given my history Grade 3 Stage 3 triple positive BC , decided a Biopsy was the best option. The radiologist believes it may be just scar tissue but he and my surgeon want to make certain. To say that my anxiety levels have now gone up a few notches is a bit of an understatement, won't have the results til Monday. I have had a pretty anxious week as a friend has gone into palliative care after her BC metasised after 4 years clear. I visited her last week and that shook my reality up a bit, then I started getting sharp pain across my chest area where I had Rads so yesterday had a chest X-ray ( my friends came back in her sternum) thankfully my lungs, ribs etc were all clear. I am now shitting myself at the thought of having to maybe go through this again but know that at the end of the day if I have to, I have to. I know that there are many of you who have faced the dread of yet another Biopsy coming back with bad news and there are many that have had the all clear from it just wish we didn't have to wait.
Patience is definitely a virtue I don't have a lot of , trying not to stress is something I also don't do well at, glass of wine will be definitely had tonight hell maybe even 2!