Anxious weekend ahead

Hi girls, on day 10 of Xeloda and other than feeling a bit tired earlier at night than usual everything else is normal. I guess that's the hardest part of this whole diagnosis as I feel so well and yes I know I should be very thankful for that! I am very grateful that I was able to start my treatment so quickly as it was less than a week after my diagnosis and with every part of me I am hoping that this cancer is stopped dead in it's sneaky tracks or at the very least contained. I have scans coming up after I finish my 3rd cycle and am so scared of what they might find, but also am holding on to the positive of what they might also show ( that Xeloda has worked for me ) I know that there are numerous treatment options if anything does flare but we have a holiday planned in September and I just want to be able to enjoy those 2 weeks without the cancer crap! It is still very surreal that I now have a secondary cancer that will be part of my life forever but I am dealing with that the best way I know how and facing it for what it is. Cancer is part of our lives now but it doesn't change us or define who we are, guess it makes us a lot more resilient and definitely stronger. All of us here face our own battles and we definitely gain from being part of this forum, we not only learn from each others experiences and trials, support each other when things are crap but also have formed a great support network for every one here , there are also some laughs along the way!