@Kat09 uuuugh I teared up reading yours! I just wanted to say I hear you and I feel you and that you have it all inside you to put one foot in front of the other and you know what?? if thats too hard somedays??? just STAND! nothing more because that's who you are.
I'm glad to hear you still working and I think that's a great idea for your sanity and to feel most like yourself. I understand that thought of feeling of letting your family down, but this is where we need to step back be kind and really love ourselves so much more. We didnt do this to ourselves and you're not letting your family down at all, they love you.
I say power to you!!! stuff remission sister!!! lets keep talking of it gone!!! Sounds like youre off to a good start with Xeloda, so keep going.
We are all here anytime you need talk, please PM anytime too! You have lots of support...biggest hugs! xoxo M