Anxious weekend ahead

@melclarity as always your thoughts and love are expressed so beautifully xo. I have been really strong til I read your post with only a few private tears with my husband. I started Xeloda 1500mg twice daily on Sunday, so day 5 of 14 today and am feeling really well, that's the kicker right I'm so strong and healthy who knew a secondary cancer was lurking! I am continuing to work and needing that for my sanity, my work colleagues have been amazing and thankfully life continues as normal both there and at home. I guess the biggest part of getting sick is trying not to feel like you've let the people you love down, that's probably my biggest struggle. It is so hard telling them that you have an illness that is not curable, well not currently anyway!  Each time I take these meds I feel that they are kicking this horrid disease in the arse. My oncologist doesn't believe she can make the cancer disappear and her hope is that it shrinks and continues to be contained, that is the lesser of my hopes , my biggest hope is showing her that we did make it disappear and hearing that word remission again!