Thank you so much for your kind and useful reply. I've found a GP who is helping me with coordination my psychiatrist, neurologist, my cancer surgeon and plastic surgeon. I've apparently been having panic attacks that I now understand that now understand are not my fault. Unfortunately help outside of my husband and daughter is limited for me. I think having to close my tutoring business has been more of a loss than I thought it would be. I derive a great deal of pleasure from it and look forward to working with my gorgeous young students.
Everything will work out OK in the end though.