Hello Princess
Wheee - you are NORMAL ! We all have those moments and days of panic when a small thing can set us off and, as you say, the constant advertising reminders do not help us.
I live in outside a small rural town as well. Unfortunately my good friends (well, those who have not died !) all live many hours away so they really have no understanding of where I am at with this BC.
Your GP can refer you for 5 free counselling sessions so take advantage of that if you like - someone to talk to confidentially - even if you visit one in a town a distance away.
This website is invaluable so use it as often as you need. Even when you feel the need to vent it always helps someone else feel they are not alone.
If you put a call out via this website you may find another BCNA member not far away from you.
Please feel free to 'personal message' me if you want to talk off the main posts page.
If you are in Victoria you will be cold as it is freezing here so keep warm.
Big cyber hugs -
Summer :-)