Anxiety Overload

Hi Princess - I think what you're experiencing is very common. I had a very low risk cancer, diagnosed June 2013. Last year, about a year after the cancer, I was convinced I had vaginal cancer because of painful atrophy issues, then a tactless GP told me he needed to do xrays because of a back problem where he wanted to rule out bone cancer. I freaked on both occasions and ended up seeing a psychologist. Which actually didn't help, but that wasn't her fault. I think I was rather depressed at the time because of the fallout of the BC. I've been told it can take a year to 2 years to actually get over the shock of the cancer and start moving on. I think it's taken me at least 18 months, but we ALL live with that shadow on our shoulders that it might come back. Sounds to me like you need a really good dump and a download with someone, maybe a professional if there's someone your GP can recommend? Putting on a brave face when you're going through a completely crappy time actually doesn't help you to resolve your thoughts. I know that sometimes you don't want to download on friends, particularly if they haven't had BC because very few understand the emotional stuff you go through. But feel free to dump and download here as much as you like. None of us will think it's all unusual, because we've all been through those negative mental gymnastics. Do hope some of this helps. Best of luck, Pam x