@LucyE No probs. Your just being honest. If I want to worry about something - literally there are hundreds of things to choose from, quite aside from cancer, there's weird, fat little men trying to blow up the world and - maybe climate change will get us first - if the Caribbean is anything to go by!
But seriously, waiting for tests - is the worst - especially over a weekend (all my first tests seemed to be done that way!). Don't feel that you must be cheerful - or not be on here. There are plenty of ladies that have rants on here and nobody judges them, because sometimes that's just what we need to do.
The BIG challenge with breast cancer is living with the unknown. I don't know for sure if I really am okay (my surgeon would slap me for saying that) but it's true. I don't know what will happen, whether I'll stay clear for 3 months, 3 years or 30 years. None of us know that for sure.
I've decided I won't try and be 'fear free' - I'll let it be - but not let it tell me what to do. The fear is a handy 'but-kicker' that reminds me to focus on what is really important - and on what I really need. It will also get me outside exercising when I don't feel like it. So it has benefits. Maybe some people don't need that motivation - I do!
I can't fix anything for you our even help you feel better. I just hope that by relating - where I can - you feel a bit less alone. XXOO take care of yourself and enjoy the much improved weather tomorrow! :)