Angry and anxious

Hi Karen I can relate to all you've expressed. I had a lumpectomy, then mastectomy, chemo etc. I do know how you feel. Since my first diagnosis in 2010, I have certainly experienced different levels of "support". I have 2 younger sisters, & the one who is closest to me in age is the one from whom I receive the most support. She even wanted to come and care for me when I was first diagnosed. (I live in Vic, the rest of my family are in SA). I was certainly angry, & wanted to go through it all by myself. I had no idea that the supportive sister felt "pushed away". We have since sorted that, however I very rarely hear from the youngest sister. She says we are "estranged" - her choice of words! Lots of other teadons, not just my cancer for her having this attitude. I find myself being angry a lot. Being firm and just short of bitchy to shop people, service providers.... I really have to get out of that habit. The best support I am really grateful for is my involvement with a support group-the Northern Breast Cancer Support Group, for whom I am secretary, & this site. I am making loads of new friends on this site. We can whinge, vent, be angry, ask questions, share and make friends. Its just the best forum. Hang in there with your treatment. I found that sucking fruit tingles helped a lot with the nausea. Also, if you've been given the My Journey kit, use the appointments and especially the journal. It's really helpful to write down how you're feeling, & interesting and encouraging to look back on. Thinking of you. Take it easy love & hugs Kathleen xxxxxxooooooo