I used to drink quite regularly before I got cancer .I love wine, now I save it for if I’m out for dinner or an evening out, if out I will have about 2 glasses of wine,or I might have a glass on a Friday night,I’m actually used to not having much now and do feel better but it was an adjustment at first.im going to Fiji soon for a couple of weeks and will probably have a drink if I feel like it within reason,but your right before when I had a drink I never thought about it ,now it does have a level of guilt for me too,