I believe what you are feeling is quite normal. I am in the middle of treatment and wonder if I will ever be able to just resume my life before it started. I'm am presently not working as I am too emotional and as I work as a counselor can't imagine being able to support someone presently. I guess really just take one day at a time. Start to plan your future again and what you would like to do versus what energy you currently have to achieve these things. It's okay to grieve about our loss, our loss of our previous lives is very real. Our loss of just feeling safe and healthy as we once were, now life has doubts and fears. Hope all goes well and you get back doing what you love best. Take care. Kath x