Totally feel your pain. This journey is crap. You are so very right it is very much "two steps forward one step back or even two steps back and one forward" at times!
It's great that we have this blog to put down our feelings. You've been an inspiration to me as I've spent time reading your blogs waiting around at clinics and in the hospital. I'm only 2 months in to my journey and admire how far you've come. Keep going forward, you're doing so well and you are allowed to whinge and complain!
And just to make you laugh, try to visualise me now. I'm sitting in a pedicure chair, reading you blog while trying to disguise drainage bag tubing that keeps appearing from the side of my handbag!
Lots of hugs
Chris xx