I still have hope.
Hope that all will be well after I get this cancerous growth off my finger and a skin graft that I will be able to go fishing again.
Hope that my cardiologist when I see him for the first time will change my meds and give me something that works and doesn't sap my energy and have me dizzy all the time.
Hope that one day in the future at least half my pre cancer energy will return and stay with me.
Hope that my mind will return and I will have that willfulness again to do things I used to and maybe to try some new things as well.