Thank you Gayle. There are some things in those words i have thought but never dared to express :'(
Don't keep it in sweety.... let it out!! We are expected by others to be tough, and to be "nice". I kept journals all through my journey, and every page of everyday explains exactly what I went through, every damn emotion, every test, every bodily fluid that flooded from me, and "WTF IS THAT GREEN SEAWEED COMING OUT OF ME??" lol... It is a horrible thing to go through!!... so you tell me!! You tell me how you feel!! ;) xx