Remision??

hi sandy, yes think a NEW normal. it took me some years and i went through emotions such as you explained. i remember going for a walk to look at the cataract gorge in flood in launceston, and just starting to cry..well not sure if i felt glad i was alive, fear if i  would stay that way, ( one day i WILL die ) wonder how my  life would pan out, concern about having my family go through things also, because of the BC; amazement at nature etc...

i went through stages of loss, grief, denial, anger, sadness, acceptance. i mean, we will all die sometime.. just maybe not today.  do we all go around scared and fearful, or just live the day. what makes you happy?

in time it has become easier, to put BC in the background. it will never completley go away, but that is ok. i still get concerned at yearly mammograms and ultrasounds.

i never used remission myself, i just said .".l will have to wait and see ".. even now i say..".well so far, so good." the lay person.. does not understand all the treatments and outcomes.

 amanda, i hope the sidney myer music bowl carols, is a memorable night for you, and your family.

i have days now when i am not so happy, for some reason, such as pain/ discomfort, or i feel tired; and others when i go " WOW ! "

i try and take pleasure in small things.. a beautiful sunset,  a lovely flower, a  kind smile or wave, saying hello to someone, knowing you might have made their day a little brighter, or listened to their concerns.

 thanks for the post; merry xmas. kathy.