Portacath insertion tomorrow...

Portacath insertion tomorrow...errrrk!! I still can't get my head around the fact that someone will be cutting me while l'm partially awake! I've requested as much sedation as possible - but it's intravenous sedation so still nervous about that...l'm going to slather both hands & elbows with Emla - seriously, l HATE procedures / injections this much! & the breast care nurse has kindly told me approx. where it will be going, so Emla there too... I'm honestly more concerned about tomorrow than l am about getting chemo...weird, l know! Off to get my mum from the station, she is nice enough to let me squash her hand through all this!!