Thanks Bel for your honesty and sharing your thoughts and feelings, it shows you as being a strong person. My god how far have you come my luvly. Sounds like you have been in a pretty dark place throughout your life. I think you will find there are plently of pink sisters who can relate to those times in their life, either recently or previously.
It is so wonderful that you have had the strength and have grown from all of your past. Well done precious. It is hard to stay strong but keep on doing what you can.
Lots of Love, Mich xoxo