Having an Aha moment!

@Beaglemum I absolutely love this! You didn’t make a hasty decision in my humble opinion. Your souls are singing, and that’s what’s important. Your body will strive to survive if your soul is happy 👌🏻👏🏻🌷🌻💖

Agree with @arpie!
@Beaglemum you have followed through on the dream of so many but life gets in the way and here you are out on the road, enjoying the country......hopefully restrictions/permits are not too much of an issue as you move about!  Good on you!
So much to see
Safe travels
Best wishes

@Beaglemum - WELL DONE YOU TWO!!   That was always my dream - but it hasn't happened & is unlikely to now as hubby is very ill.  :(   Feel free to add regular pics into On Our Walks ... I know that I'd love to see them!!
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/19570/on-our-walks/p44

take care & safe travels xx

@Sister I hope your magnetic interference becomes less and less as times goes on.  There isn't any good time to get cancer, but perhaps I was a bit luckier as I was closer to retiring age when I was diagnosed, but my body didn't not bounce back as well as I would have expected if I was younger.  

Let's hope you can keep moving forward and find that young at heart feeling again.  Best wishes.  xx

No aha's here but a gradual realisation post treatment about how far I had strayed from the person I was in my late teens/early 20s and that I kind of missed her a lot!  58 year old me has a lot more responsibilities that demand my attention and action but I do reach out to my younger self and feel that my compass is finding True North again through a lot of magnetic interference.

@MicheleR I would say the comment by the Social Worker suggesting writing an end of life plan was a big Aha moment for you from what you describe.  I think it OK not to have everything resolved yet, and I also saw an exercise physiologist and I did some physiotherapy and now doing some strength training classes (when not in lockdown... Melbournite).  

Loved ones and hobbies get a lot of my attention.  :)

All the best in whatever you decide to do next.  xx

@Beaglemum you sound like you are putting yourself and your wellbeing first now!   My first instinct was to show those around me that I could cope with whatever life threw at me, but I really don't think that decision was for my benefit, but more for others! 

I hope your adventures are amazing, and enjoy the beer, Cheers. :)

 

When i was in hospital with neutropenia it was a very low time, all my hair was falling out and a social worker came and discussed getting an end of life plan together. Wtf! I started to realise the seriousness of the situation (which i had felt but still felt the need to keep going). As i started taxol something flicked in my mind about wanting to survive well or if i had to die, die well. I started going to an exercise physiologist. Ive been going for about a year twice a week. My cardio endurance and recovery has improved and im adding more exercise to my week. Sadly no weight liss but i feel physically stronger. 

Lots of things still feel somewhat unresolved but i have exercise and how good it feels to hang onto  im grateful to be able to do it when during chemo sometimes it was hard to walk from one part of the house to another. Im working through my thoughts on everything and weighing up what is important. 

Good on you @Beaglemum - that has taken such strength and commitment to your idea.  Hope you both, and the pooches, have a fantastic experience around the country.  All the best in all that you do once COVID permits.  May you all remain healthy and happy.  💖

I'm not sure if I had an AHA moment, but something switched in my mind.  When diagnosed with BC I was in shock, but i had work to concentrate on, it was really important to me that I carried on working throughout treatment, in hindsight not sure if it was for my benefit or just to show I can cope with this like I cope with everything else.

All my active treatment was finished last March, I am on Femara and ageing alot quicker than I would like, but kept on working harder.  Anyway something snapped around September and had a long conversation with husband about giving up work and travelling around Oz.  I did the numbers (am an accountant so can show the numbers work!) So we bought a caravan, I resigned from my job - we put our house on the market earlier this year and sold.  My husband then resigned from his job,  sadly covid stopped us in our tracks for a while but we are now back on course.  Both are no longer in stressful jobs, we are sat in a caravan park with our 2 beagles having a beer as I write this.  Am I scared we made a hasty decision - maybe, but life's too short for regrets as we all know so well.

So whether its an AHA moment or not - put yourself and your wellbeing at the forefront.